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CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW
all fools day should be good this year. we'll find out. i
hope something f-amazing happens tomorrow. shit. i'll make it happen........no. no i won't.
THE FUTURE HAS BEGUN
i've been waiting for this day to come for quite some time
and now it's just no fun. futurama is so stupid and boring when you're depressed. not even zapp brannigan could make me laugh
today. and that says a whole fucking lot. i've said it before and i'll say it again. change sucks! everyone i know, i just
thought i knew. does that make sense? blah! who cares anyway? at times i blame it on myself. it feels like i pushed
them to the edge and they responded by doing a 180. what did i do wrong? i haven't said anything to anyone for that reason.
i didn't (and still don't) want to influence these kids and kidettes. maybe that's it? shit, i don't know. i'm probably thinking
about things too hard. i'm back at zero and slowly slipping into the red. i mean that in every sense of the things i own,
had, or felt. no more money. no more feelings. no more love. no more hate. i'm a clean slate once more, and that's scary.
where do i go from here? don't try to make me what you want me to be. it won't work.
FUTURAMA: 1st SEASON, OUT ON DVD TOMORROW!!!
it's been a while but i finally did something. what? i can't
recall completely. something about almost getting my ass beat. mingle mingle. drank on the side of the 210. drink drink. threw
up in the sink while brushing my teeth. ha ha! the future begins tomorrow. tomorrow comes today.
AND THE BUSINESS WEEK COMES TO AN END
i've had three shitty weekends in a row. life sux. depression
sets in. zwan isn't helping my situation much either. "super sale", super sucked. it's nice to know i'm not the only weirdo,
it sux to know my computer is on the verge of death. i got to witness the funniest damn thing ever. two suv's full of white
girls, some cute, most not, and they were all amused by simple things. why didn't i pick up? oh yeah! cuz i'm not cute...oh
well, at least my shirt is. the most important girls in my life are all changing so fast and in so many risky directions i
can't help but get scared. i love them all and wish them the best even though i can't bring myself to say it. i hope they
know. everything.
"ITS THE WEARIN' OF THE GREEN, BART"
i really should be drinking. um? what to say? what to say?
nothing that has any real content or value. oh yeah! yesterday while chatting with lynn i came to the realization that if
natalie portman were a pornstar her porn-name would be natalie manport. i also realized that lynn's gonna blast off in her
rocket to frisco, mars, while i have trouble getting off the ground. if i ever do get a rocket, i'd be like that bitch, alice
cramden, and go "bang! zoom! to the moon!". i wouldn't have enough alco-fuel to make it to mars so i'd have to settle for
the moon instead. then i'd probably have to battle moon men so i'll pack my umbrella. i hope there are whalers there
doing what they love. meanwhile we all look for something new to kill the pain.
I HAVE NO $, IT MUST BE THE 16th
i decided to waste money on a digicam. well! it's not really
a waste cuz i love the damn thing. i still love film cameras more. who doesn't love the wet process
more?
I'VE GOT $, IT MUST BE THE 15th
insult to injury! worthless-ass monthly paychecks...anyway.
i like the rain except when it kills my fun. why can't it be satisfied just killing hobos and bad drivers? thats about it...that,
and duff beer rocks!
TOMORROW
i'm bored yet again. two parties, one sleepover and the chance
to go to the tit bar and i'm still here. i kinda want to see a cabaret show. shit! who doesn't? anyway, i'm starving and i
(physically) can't eat. and i'm bored cuz its friday and i'm at home. kill me. well, at least jo is good company, she rocks!
JUST A DAY SHY OF A WEEK
so...it's the...13th of march? yeah! it is the thirteenth.
and um? today work sucked. if it weren't for lynn it would have been depressing.once again she was my highlight. i felt kinda
awkward though. it wasnt very good timing. oh well! i hope you like the book. i love it. blah blah bliggity blah. two parties
tomorrow. should i go where i know it was happening last party or risk going to a sleepover *wink wink*? shit! i'll do both.......................................................hooray
for youth and idiocy!
15 MINUTES LATER
i think i'll finally start writing stuff on a regular basis....no
one will read. fuck it in a bucket!
THAT NITE
life sux so bad! someone kill me. i think eminem
was right when he said that friends are just enemies with secret identities. i was feeling fine for the last couple of weex
but now i'm super depressed....yeah, thats all i have to say. those who know me understand. those who dont...get to know
me!
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